2018

I'm having a hard time trying to think positively at the moment. My mind feels cloudy. I'm feeling reflective on the past year, but I don't really feel fulfilled by it. In fact, it makes me feel a little sad.

I guess in a positive way it's making me see what I want from the upcoming year. I want the obvious. I want to keep doing what I love the most. Gigs and music are my way of escaping. Just like many others. This will continue, i'm not ready to give that up yet. But next year I want to go to more, I feel like i've missed out on way too many shows this year that I wanted to go to but haven't been able due to financial problems.

I want to explore another part of the world, just like I did this year. But only this time I want to go somewhere that is more my climate, not so populated, and more greenery than concrete. That's not me being ungrateful, I am so very grateful, but I have realised and learnt more about myself this year about areas that I find bring me peace. Busy cities aren't for me. I love the culture, I love site seeing, but I am longing to visit somewhere surrounded by mountains, lakes, and the worlds natural beauty. That's where I find my peace.

I want to become more financially stable. This is my biggest downfall. This holds me back which I am aware of. There are problems I need to tackle first, before I tackle this problem. It is one that by the end of next year, I hope to have more in my control. I have ideas in my head, I just need to put them into reality. I need to have more faith in myself in order to do this. It's something I lack, which then leads on to destroying my motivation to pursue it. 

One thing that I really enjoy doing is this blog, and I would like to take it more seriously. By this I mean posting more regularly, because it's good for me. It's my own little space where I can be my own boss, and I can create content which I can share with whoever is kind enough to give me a few minutes of their day, in taking the time to read, or even skim read. I want to go back to my roots and create more videos. I feel like this without even putting real effort in will help develop both my writing, filming and editing skills.

This ties in with the creative side of me. I need to stop destroying ideas and tasks before they are even complete. I have started so many creative projects, and just left them before finishing them. I think this relates back to having confidence in myself. 

Wouldn't life be better if we quit any inch of doubt in our minds, and just chase the things we love? Too many people don't, I for one am tired of being that person. 2018 is going to be more about me. And it starts from right now :) 

Christmas Haul 2017

And just like that Christmas was over :( I love watching the hauls of people with similar taste to myself. So I have gone ahead and had a go at doing my own. Every thing you find here will either be black, witchy, or just very me. I've listed links to everything featured, below :) 

Moon / Star Socks -  KILLSTAR

Notebook - KILLSTAR

Witch Mug - EBAY

Pull Ring Pinafore - H&M

Lace Blouse - H&M

Teddy Jacket - NEW LOOK

Striped T-shirt - NEW LOOK

Floral Strappy Dress - TOPSHOP (SIMILAR)

Leopard Print Sock Boots - MATALAN (SIMILAR)

Jeffree Star Skin Frost in shade Neffree - BEAUTY BAY

Dose Liquid Lipsticks in shades Brick & Bare With Me - BEAUTY BAY

2017, A Year In Reflection

Dear 2017,

There is no denying you have been a difficult one, and you've flown by quicker than I've known any other year. I never pictured me to be in the place that I am now, but that's okay because you've taught me things; that I don't really want you lingering around into the new year. As that year will be mine.

Looking back you've also given me a bunch of good stuff. Stuff that I am forever grateful for. Like my two new best friends; Shadow & Link. I never thought this time last year I would have two furry little rat friends, though it's always been talked about. Though not quite a dog, they have become great company.

I saw my hamster pass, though it may be 'just a hamster', I loved it like I would any animal, and strangely brought back memories of my dog. 

It saw my Dad in hospital in a state i've never seen him in before, it made me realise how life is too short. It made me realise how non of us are invincible, life is unpredictable, and any one can become sick at any time, so we need to make the most of it. 

You let me see my favourite band play 6 of their albums in full. No doubtably one of the best experiences of my life. I will forever hold this experience close to my heart.

I got to travel to one of the most beautiful cities in the world, Rome for my 26th Birthday present. I couldn't have asked for a better gift. I hope next next I get to travel some more. I want to see Switzerland and I am going to try and make that happen.

I went on the London Eye, something I have always wanted to do but never had the chance. Something that made me realise (again) that maybe I'm not good in small spaces up high!

2017 you made me stick to one of my resolutions; to start writing more. Although I still don't do it nearly as enough as i'd like to, i'm doing it at my own pace, and i've stuck to it. I think that is something to be proud of. As for all my other 'resolutions' there is still room for improvement. 

I've started to let my creativity out more, and I have realised that this is something that makes me truly happy. It brings me calm. 

I've learnt a lot of lessons this year, some that may have slipped my mind right now. The biggest one of all being that I want to make 2018 my year. I know that is a pretty standard saying. I want to know my heart and soul feel happy.

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Witch Casket Unboxing // December 2017

The best time of the month! Witch Casket day has arrived! Yay! 

I got my first subscription box last month (which I have also made an unboxing video / post for. You can find that here) and I absolutely loved it, and this month felt like it was a notch above the last; how is that possible?!

I loved the idea of the misfortune cookie; mine said "If today were a fish, i'd chuck it back in if I were you", which made me laugh and is just a bit of brilliant fun. (I hate the taste of fortune cookies though). My pendulum I was made up with because by the looks of other peoples, everyone got a different colour. My favourite colour is green, and it has such pretty detailing on the stone; I think I got extra lucky!! 

Anyways, heres an unboxing video, and list of contents in the order of the video (incase you want to skip through) 

Roll on January! Plus I can't wait to use my calendar! So cute!

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Box Contents: 
Art Print - By Novilunium Eyes
2018 Calendar - Witch Casket Exclusive 
Black Coconut Incense Sticks
Breaking Bad Habits Candle Spell - Witch Casket Exclusive
Chai of Madagaskar Loose Lead Tea 
Zebra Agate Crystal 
Karma Fragranced Candle - Vanilla
Dowsing Pendulums Parchment Scroll - Witch Casket Exclusive
Witch Casket Badge - By Curiology
Pendulum Cloth - Witch Casket Exclusive
Fridge Magnet - Witch Casket Exclusive
Misfortune Cookie - Pechkeks 
Crystal Pendulum

Mastodon // Brixton Academy, London // 10.12.17

Brixton Academy is just one of those venues that holds a lot of memories for me. It's also funny how it was exactly a year ago to the day that I was here in this very venue, watching Bullet For My Valentine play The Poison in full; which still happens to be one of the most memorable shows of my life. So far.

Waking up to the snow today was interesting. No one believed me when I said it was going to snow, not even the man in the post office the day before haha. There was a lot of hassle with the trains, because of course any slight weather drop, and the trains can't handle it, but we eventually made it.

I've never had the chance to see Mastodon before. Dan on the other hand has done quite a number of times. I guess as i've never even watched any live footage of them before on the internet that I went not knowing what to really expect from seeing them live; But there was something about this was different to other shows I have been to. I felt like it was really just about appreciating the music tonight, you know standing and taking in the band as a whole. 

Coming home was another thing all together. We arrived back at Euston to only have to wait another 2 hours for a train; it was freezing, and i've never ever been so happy to hear the noise of the opening train doors to let us in to the warmth. 

Robert Plant // Royal Albert Hall, London // 08.12.17

This is a bit different to the sort of music I usually post about. A  birthday gift from Dans Mom, to him; seeing Robert Plant of Led Zeppelin, at the most beautiful venue in London, The Royal Albert Hall.

I must admit, I am in by no means a Zeppelin fan; if i'm honest with you, it's not my cup of tea, just like that era of music, BUT I see why others are mad for them; I see why they are Dans favourite band. By my own surprise I actually very much enjoyed this evening. 

We were originally put in seats, right next to the stage. But as soon as we got their, we realised we couldn't see a thing. After some miracle we were allowed to exchange our tickets for wristbands which meant we could stand in the viewing area, the very top of the hall. The view was amazing!

Empty Skies // Outfit Post

I found something new to be obsessed with and never take off. This dress. I haven't posted in a while any of my outfits and that is because the quality is never up to the standard of what others post.  I don't have a tripod and I don't feel confident enough to pose in front of a camera, whilst something photographs me, at least not yet. But then I figured that this is supposed to be fun and not taken seriously, so why not share what I am wearing. 

I fell in love this this dress instantly. You can see why. So once again, I am sorry for the bad quality pictures. But I am not sorry for the awesome dress haha. :)

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Dress // Asos
Shoes // Converse

Why I Don't Drive

I don't drive. I spent a few years trying to pass my test from 2012, I failed my test twice, and I ran out of funds. I was a nervous driver, I could drive, but I think the social anxiety part of me let me down. That may sound ridiculous to some people, but I spent more time worrying about the fact I was in a car trying to make small talk for an hour, than anything. 

I had panic attack after panic attack, more of less every single time the day of my driving lesson came around. I would go to the toilet about 20 times whilst waiting for my instructor to arrive. I would pace back and fourth, have to sit in the garden to cool down and catch my breath. My heart would be pounding, fluttering, i'd be feeling dizzy and light headed. It wasn't the driving I was scared of, I loved it! 

One day I got into the car, and I was shaking noticeably. This was the first time I have felt anyone being able to notice. I had my foot on the clutch, ready to go, and my whole leg was shaking; it was as if I had no strength in my leg to control it. This was the worst my anxiety had ever been during my driving lesson sessions. I started crying, and it felt so embarrassing. 

So after I failed a second time, the reason I felt it was even more gutting was because I knew I had to go through it all again, all the lessons, and the 'social interaction sessions'. 

I know one day i'll pick it up again,  I want to feel that sense of achievement and know that it was worth all the hard work I put in, in the first place. Aside from my own personal experience, I do think driving isn't for everyone. Hey, walking is a good excuse for exercise too. 

Pictures are not my own 

Last Christmas

I was looking through old pictures today, wondering how quickly a year has gone. Then I had the idea to show some pictures from the past couple of years, during the Christmas Period. 

Christmas 2016

As it happens, it looks like 2016 wasn't a good year for Christmas pictures. This was all I could find. This was actually on NYE.

The Run up to Christmas last year was very exciting though. Dans Birthday is two weeks before the big day, so we went away to Stratford Upon Avon to celebrate. That got me feeling festive!

Christmas 2015

This was the year we had an attempt at going to Winter Wonderland in London. We went during the evening, and honestly; we hated it! It was my idea of hell, the crowds; you couldn't move. Drunk people everywhere. It just wasn't my cup of tea. But least we can say we've been haha!

Christmas 2014

Looking back, is a sad one. This was the last Christmas we had with my dog around, Ralph. The pictures of him dressed up are from the year before. 

I've found so many pictures, but not many i'm willing to share. It's scary how much I have changed (and Dan) in the past few years. I think like a baby!

I think it's time to raid my mothers photo collection and fish out some pictures from my childhood. Stay tuned!

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Black Christmas // Gift Ideas

I mentioned about attempting  Blogmas this year? Well, here goes my attempt. I'm not promising I will post every day, but we might as well put a sticker on the tin and call it "Blogmas", right? 

I thought we would start off with a Christmas gift list, dedicated to all things black. Don't forget the discount codes! 

PUBLIC DESIRE // HEELED BOOTS

£39.99

15% OFF WHEN YOU SIGN UP TO THEIR EMAILS

FIND THEM HERE

These come in SO many different styles, glitter, metallic, It's pretty hard not to want them all. Especially the silver metallic for over the Christmas period. 

DISTURBIA // OUIJA LONG SLEEVE

£27.95

10% OFF AFTER SIGNING UP TO THEIR EMAILS 

FIND THIS HERE

If you're not a fan of this design, but would like something similar, be sure to check out their other shirts. Unisex also, so if you're lame like me and love to match, buy each other one!

PAPERCHASE // GLASS HOUSE

£20

CURRENTLY 30% OFF. 10% OFF WITH STUDENT DISCOUNT

FIND THIS HERE

I had an idea to store some crystals in this, it would make a great display piece! 

I love the whole range Paperchase have at the moment called "Bloom Noir". It was pretty much made for someone like myself. 

SACRED HAWK // BUCKET BAG

£40

10% STUDENT DISCOUNT ON ASOS. SIGN UP TO ASOS EMAILS FOR 15% (may be 20)

FIND IT HERE

I love the gold contrasts on this bag, it's subtle. For someone like myself who wears A LOT of black, I feel that the gold just adds a bit of detail to any full black outfit.

KILLSTAR // BOOK OF SPELLS NOTEPAD

£9.99

CURRENTLY KILLSTAR OFFERING DISCOUNT.  10% OFF WITH EMAIL SIGN UP.

FIND IT HERE

Killstar have a wide selection of items you could give as gifts (or add to your own want list), whether it be sippy cups, mugs, note pads, house decor... your list will be never ending once you start. This is in fact on my wish list! I'm hoping Santa brings me it so I can keep all my lists, ideas, and brainstorms. 

H & M // CORD JACKET

£69.99

10% OFF WITH EMAIL SIGN UP. DEALS ON THE APP IF YOU SIGN UP FOR THEIR CLUB (FREE SIGN UP).

FIND IT HERE

The most expensive item on the list. I think you'll agree that it's by far the prettiest though. I walked past the H&M window on Oxford Street, saw this, my eyes lit up, then I stopped and stared for a while. It's one to save the pennies for. 

TOPSHOP // HAMSA AND CAT SOCKS

RANGE £3-£4

10% OFF WITH STUDENT DISCOUNT. £10 OFF WITH EMAIL SIGN UP

FIND THEM HERE

Look, you're going to get socks for Christmas, no doubt about it, so why not ask for some socks that you can use to tie in with your outfit?

I'm not a fan out cats, but I thought these were pretty cute. They also look more like bats.

Also good to note they do deals on socks, 3 for £8.

FUCHSTEUFELSWILD // MUG

£11.99

£5 OFF IMPERICON WITH EMAIL SIGN UP

FIND IT HERE

Now, i'm gonna be honest with you, I have no idea how to pronounce the name of this brand, I probably never will. But i've seen them on Impericon a few times, and their stuff is pretty neat. The slogans hard to not love, right?

Happy buying!

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