I'm Still Learning Things About Myself

I'm feeling rather reflective today mixed with a tad touch of positive; something that perks up now and then, but usually takes a backseat. I think I focus too much on the things that consume me, you could call them bad parts, but in some respect they can actually reflect as positives themselves. 

What the hell am I on about, you are probably wondering. I'm not one to go on about my struggles, because every one has struggles themselves to some degree, and I am a pretty reserved person. Well actually, I am a very reserved person. But these past few days It's hit me, that maybe the worrying, anxious, sad part inside me, which I have struggled with my whole life, in some ways makes me a better person.

Of course, I would give anything to extinguish that part of me, but reality is, even when I find a way to keep these things at bay, it is always someway going to be a part of me, I will now and then have an off day, which is okay, It's just about finding a way to control it. 

Release

Half finished vases

I've realised how much creativity can help me. It really lets your mind go, and it's the only real thing I've found where I can concentrate, and switch my thoughts off completely, almost like a trance. By making things, and letting my creativity flow, and having something to show at the end of it, is giving me a real buzz. I've tried lots of things, reading, exercise, playing games, watching TV, etc, but other than music, this is the one thing that i'm finding relaxes me. 

I spent this weekend painting a pair of vases for my Mom, for Mothers Day. It's kept me busy this weekend, it's been something i've enjoyed a lot, and something that's in the end given me satisfaction, to give something I created to someone else.

Positivity

So, the positives, and in no way am I blowing my own trumpet. I've realised how much of a caring human being I actually am. I've realised that though I may worry a lot, about pretty much every mortal thing and more, I worry because I care (most of the time). With things regarding people closest to me, I worry because I care about them. 

I'm compassionate. This would probably get on peoples nerves from time to time, but I like to look after people, and animals. I think those who have struggled before, know how to deal with others who also struggle, because we know the pain that the other person may be feeling, and I think that is a beautiful thing. We should build each other up, not break each other down. 

I'm a great listener. I struggle with human interaction, I have accepted that only in recent years. But just because I may not talk very much at times, doesn't mean I don't listen to others. As I said, i'm not really one to talk about my feelings and thoughts to just anyone, but if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm definitely someone who would give the time of day to listen to anyone about the wonders of their world. 

Like I said in my title, i'm still learning things about myself, just like everyone else. 

Too Faced // Melted Matte Liquid Lipsticks

Top - Bottom, Left - Right:
Queen B, Child Star, Sell Out, Evil Twin, Lady Balls.

Swatches in ambient lighting.
Top - Bottom, Left - Right: Evil Twin, Queen B, Sell Out, Child Star, Lady Balls.

Swatches in natural light
Top - Bottom, Left - Right: Evil Twin, Queen B, Sell Out, Child Star, Lady Balls.

I've been wanting to do a post on these Too Faced Melted Matte Lipsticks for a while, but was waiting to slightly expand my collection first. 

I've found it hard to find a liquid lipstick collection that I can 100% get along with, it's been a roller coaster of a journey, first world problems at it's finest. There are a few minor faults in these, they are not perfect (what is?), but I can safely say, I do see eye to eye with these.

Faults
First lets start with the few faults I have found. 

Child Star - out of the 5 I currently own, this is the only one to give me real bad cracking problems. No matter how much I have exfoliated my lips and done all the prepping under the sun, it's still cracking. I'd like to know if anyone else has found this or if it's just me. But as I said I haven't had that problem with any of the other shades, so far.

Application - I've found these a little harder to apply neatly than other liquid lipsticks. I think this is a personal preference, because although I've heard a lot of comments on how Kat Von D Everlasting Liquid Lipsticks are harder to apply, I actually find Kat's easier to apply than these. However, I can live with this, it's probably a practice thing. 

Lady Balls - I have worn this a lot. I wore this for 12 hours straight on the day of my boyfriends Moms wedding, and it did me proud. But the last time I wore this, it bled, everywhere, good times. I had never had this problem before, I will put it to a bad day (for now) 

Advantages 
On to the fun part, let me tell you why the few faults I found are now completely irrelevant. 

Packaging - Yes, the packaging is cute, but I actually love how the packaging colours are almost identical to the shade of the lipstick. Very handy Andy. 

Lasting Power - As I already briefly mentioned, I wore these for pretty much 12 hours straight and it lasted through food and a lot of drinks, with the minor touch up throughout the day. 

Pigmentation - A little goes a long way, with just one swipe you get great coverage. 

Texture - These feel great on, even after wearing them through out the day, they don't feel thick or sticky, like most liquid lipsticks do. They glide on perfectly and they stay that way. They don't flake either (like I found the KVD Everlasting ones did).

And if you take anything from this, know that I will be buying more in the future, so that's obviously something to go by! x

Cloud Connected

I should have warned you on the terrible pictures, but I still have no tripod or the confidence to venture out and pose in the outside world, properly. That will come i'm sure. Never the less, I have stumbled across some awesome clothes lately, and want to share them. Like this Primark denim jacket that was the price of a couple of packets of crisps and a Mars bar. 

Jacket // Primark (£15)
Long Sleeve // Motel 
Jeans // Asos
Shoes // Vans
Choker // Wanderdusk
Socks // Primark

March Wishlist

Deary me, where is the year going. 

(Basically just started this post like a letter). I have already completed a grand total of 0 of my 2017 goals, or even started for that matter. I'd really love to do some outfit posts soon, It's just gaining to confidence to do them - I really don't like being in front of a camera, but i'd love to pluck up the nerve to do some properly. Until that eureka moment, here goes the monthly gathering of fascinating fabrical finds. I just made that up.  

Pull & Bear // Gingham Skater Skirt 

(HERE)

I've been hovering over the purchase button for a few hours now. I keep going back to it, but I can't justify the four pound postage right now for the sake of a 10 pound skirt. 

Impericon // In Flames Tee

(HERE)

I've always loved In Flames, but recently I've seemed to have rekindled my love for them, and it's currently on fire.. In Flames in fact (dad joke). I've never owned one of their shirts though, I've been trying to find a Clayman shirt, but can't find one, so if anyone is reading this and knows where to find one, please hit me up. 

Primark // Denim Jacket

(PRIMARK)

I found this whilst browsing online, so haven't actually scouted it out in store yet. But they also have this in a dark blackish colour, which I'm keen to go find. At 15 pounds you can't really complain. 

Motel // Oversized Shirt

(HERE)

It comes in two colours at the moment, so be sure to check out the green / red one also on the Motel site, which I currently own. I loved it so much though that I feel the need to own them both. Be warned though, I am a size 8- 10 and the XS was still oversized for me, which is the one I went for. But it's the perfect oversized. 

Boohoo // Striped Bodysuit

(HERE)

Give me stripes any day of the week. I love this casual bodysuit, perfect to pair with some mom jeans!

Boohoo // Bleached Cold Shoulder Tee

(HERE)

A band-style t-short, but without the band. I can live with this. Plus bleached black tee's look awesome. Dream on Dreamer (the band) did some a little while ago, always wanted one, never got one. Never will. -sad face- ,